Education

Goodbyes are always so hard. I spent the last two days with my dad, who is on his way back to NY now. He saw where I was living and the people I'm surrounded by for support. He learned a lot. He learned a lot about me and I didn't try to hide anything. I spoke openly and honestly because I deserve to for my recovery.  My secret's keep me sick and everyday I have less and less of them and to my surprise people aren't as shocked as I expect them to be. Thats why I've been able to open up so much because the people around me are understanding and nonjudgemental. My dad came to Renfrew with me and listened intently and asked questions. I asked him what he learned and he told me that an eating disorder is a silent disease. He now understands that like drugs or alcohol an ED is not something you can get over in a day or a month, it is a long struggle but I can come out on top! He's really trying to understand which is awesome. He even ordered a salad for lunch yesterday, come to find out he was starving because he really wanted a cheeseburger, but didn't think he could order it with me there. It would have been fine if he did but it's so cute how he thought like that! Haha! I love him and respect him so much now that I am getting older and seeing how much he loves me and how much he's sacrificed to get me better. I listen to all the pain I caused him and my family. They were preparing themselves to bury me. Thank god I am here and my addictions did not make me permanently leave this earth and my beautiful complex family. I have a different relationship with each member of it and i couldn't love every single one anymore!!